Many Changes

As we are getting ready to say our Good Bye, Trying to figure out how we can move all of us and of coarse trying to figure out what to do with the house, short sale, or renting, or rent to own.

Then the packing has started, in our room book shelves cleared, some boxes have been filled, and more boxes yet to come. The one thing, that sadden me is that our Church family wont be able to celebrate with us the twins first Birthday with us.

They been such a big part in our lives, they are not blood family, but they are so are family. They been there for us, through the worst, the tears, the laughters, the stress, and the happiest moment when we found out about our twins, the love and support.

I can't believe in just a few weeks that our lives here in Jacksonville Fl will be no more and it will be just a wonderful memory, espically when we think of all the people we meet, and all the people we have grown to love and care about.

However we are looking forward to seeing what VA will be like for us and looking forward to seeing what god has planned for us and that is one thing that i am very hopeful and excited about, and knowing that we still have all the love and support here also just warms my heart.


I love you West Jacksonville Advent Christian Church, and i will always love you and Cherish each and everyone of you and we will come and see you and visit you. I can't waite to return and have all the fun and laughter once more.

Life Is Hard

When we are born life is brand new, things to us are just amazing and so much to explore and God might have told us what he wanted us to do before he sent us into the world, but we forget and then some small things and little hints help us to remember.

However, we also forget how life is hard, we end up getting hurt by many loves in our lives, and most of all our family. We seem to hurt eachother, get revange on eachother, say things about eachother and still love eachother, we even will go years on end and not speak to eachother over something stupid, or because we said something and we blame each other.

Instead of forgiving or saying i am sorry and being the first even though it could be our fault or it could be not our fault somebody has to take the step and forgive and say i am sorry. Our father who art in Heaven hallow be thy name, thy kingdom come thy will be done and earth as it is in heaven. We forget how our father wants us to forgive eachother and love eachother, some of us are getting old and have health problems and such and some of us are just starting our lives and yet to explore and live.

We can learn from our children the joy and laughter and love that is actually in this world, the smiles and their faces. We have to learn that we are not always right, and we need to learn how to love with out anger, fighting, revange and hatered etc.

We need to learn that in life all we got is just one life to live, so why carry all this hatered for eachother and why point fingers and not speak and just continue an ugly cycle that doesn't need to continue and why say things about eachother and talk bad about eachother.

I don't usually have time to write or even put my thoughts down since the twins been born, but sometimes its funny how the Lord comes and speaks to you, just like he did for me yesterday while i was setting and watching my soap "All my childern" one of the Characters JR has cancer and he was losing the fight and he is between life and death and the Lord seens his mother to him to talk to him about fighting how he is love on earth and how he has so much to live for, even though life to him seem to be not worth and that there was nothing but hatered and hurt, and anger.

Eventually he hears his sons voice and he comes back, he realizes he wasn't done, his life wasn't over and he has o much more to live for and he is now fighting. So I wanted right there and then to sit down and write, but I hadn't had the chance. Look around you, see what you got and what you miss and what you wish you had, you can have everything, you can have all your family and friends, if you just put your anger aside, and give it to God and ask to forgive those who hurt you and ask the Lord to have those you heard to forgive you and then make that next step and go to them and say i am sorry even though they don't say it back to you.


Its funny how even a soap ( a drama show) can make you see things differently or is it the show, to me i don't think its the show I think its the Lord way to show me, what I need to do to guide me. Its funny how he does that. Thank you Lord, Praise You Jesus, I love you with all my heart.

I ask you to join with me and Learn but your anger us, and all the hatered and revange etc and open your Hearts and arms and say I am sorry and just allow and trust in our God and learn how to love eachother.


My prayer for all of us is for us to turn to eachother and to Our God to bring us closer together and to forgive eachother no matter who is at fault because we as a family we are all at fault and we need, MUST forgive eachother.

Now My Prayer

Dear Heavnly Father, I know i am not perfect, and you know I am not you made me, all I ask is for you to help to learn how to forgive, to talk, to listen, and to open my heart to forgiveness, I don't just come to you just for my self, but for everybody in my life, my friends, my family and those who i haven't yet met or even those from my pass. I also come to you my father to ask you to teach and reach your loving arms around everybody in my family to forgive, to ask forgiveness to you and to those they hurt and those who hurt them and I ask for those who are sick in my family to make them better and i also ask my father if there are those who don't know you, reach out to them and show them that you are real and and loving and the Great God, I know you are, in Jesus name I pray Amen!

Friendship, Love, and Childern of God

Feb 2010 six months old

August 2009 a few days old

As I go through their Cloths and is watching my children grow, I look at them and see how wonderful and amazing our God is, I see God in them, in Jessica smile, and RJ eyes, in their laugh, when they play.

I can't help to think and hope and pray that i wont be just their mom who discplines them, teach them right from wrong, put them in time out etc, but their friend, somebody they can come cry too, somebody they can talk too about everything and feel comfortable about it.

I don't want them to be afraid, and i want them to see that they are smart, handsome,pretty, and is able to do whatever it is they want to do. The Love of a mother has not one word, no word can describe of how a mother feels about their childern and how much they love them.

We will never really know how much God loves us, so i think our children, will really never know how much we love them. I used be able to write or blog but i can't do that this days, but thats ok, cause I get to spend time and do things for my family, our family. chris and i family, boy oh boy, oh boy i do love saying that.



See though how much they have grown

Saying so Long to 09 and Hello to 2010 (10)

Well we have such a wonderful year with the Birth of our twins, it has none the less been so adventerous with them, watching them grew and change and well sleeping to the night. Except for last night for some reason, but hey that happens maybe they thought it was New Years Day.


Its been awhile since i have written in my blog, but that what happens when life gets busy, however I am enjoying and I am actually getting things in order and enjoying life as a mom and wife.

I always enjoyed my life as a wife though but now i feel Chris and I family is fully put together with the birth of the twins. RJ and Jessica are growing like weeds sort of speak but they are four months old and still fitting in 3 months Rj is long but his 3 months to 6 months pants just falls right off him when you pick him up, so that why i keep him in h is jammies.


Chris and I can't thank the Gibbs, the Peacocks, the Allens and the Henderson and Knipp Adkins for everything they did for us, thank you so much for sticking by us and not giving up on us, you all don't know how much you mean to us and how you are a big part of your family, you might not be blood but you are through Jesus Christ and I for one couldn 't ask for better brothers and sister through our Lord Jesus.

Thank you to our family family for loving us, sporting us and not getting too upset for us getting pregnant and I can't waite for my family to meet the twins its long over due and I know for a fact that the twins are just going to love each and every one of them. For 2010 chris and i are going to invite people over and not be afraid what the house looks like I at times forget that people are as judgemental and they do understand how hard it is to be a wife and mom, we are also going to start getting back into church and trust that its ok to trust others to take care of our babies and we will also both get healther and lose weight in 2010. I just pray that i can't stick to my diet and get into a rotine, and eat my special k and low fat milk and drink my water. I know i have all the support i just got make sure I reach out to them and trust them and not get upset when they tell me Jamye you are off the wagon get back on it.


Well God Bless you all
and Let Rock the whole New Year
Heres to 2010 I can't waite to see whats in store for us all

Mommy to twins

Here is usally how my day starts at least the first for weeks after they were born

1am Jessica needs to be feed and changed

2am still trying to get jessica to sleep

3am RJ wakes up and needs to be feed and changed

4. lay down for an hour

5:30 Jessica wakes up again

6. now its RJ turn

now my nights are at times gets easier unless one of them or both of them have belly aches, who knows what the reason is for could be because of the breast milk or because of the forumla or both.

However, i know at times that when i feed RJ the minute i hook him on he falls asleep, and my daughter for some reason finds comfort on sucking on my bottom rather then sucking on a pacifier and i know that sucking on my lip isn't a good thing however i find it strange how she falls asleep.

Does she get my sense of strangeness from me, awww of coarse, I mean she has been like this since she has been in my belly, she needs my full attention and more of mommy time then RJ does. Is it a girl thing more then likely i am finding out it is.

They say having one baby is hard, having two kids its easier, but they never said having two kids at the same time and raising them how much harder that is, i am not going to lie by the end of the day i am just stress and it is usually because from 3-6 they are crying after they been feed and changed and they both want to be held and well thats impossible to do. But its not all the time, its probably two to three times during the week that they are like this, i have to say for twins and babies I am blessed to have to great babies and I wouldn't ask for anything more.

Mommy Time

Through out the day you may see me on facebook or on myspace and wonder how is she is doing it and how she getting online that much. To be honest have the time i get on and i start looking at what people sent me or their comments and post and the next minute Jessica wakes up or RJ or both at the same time needing mommy food, or formula or both, or a diaper change or they have a belly ache.

So really I am not on, I just leave them running hoping i can get the time in too do, usually i do get on when chris home, and then I get in the shower, give them their baths and then feed and change and put them to bed for three to four hours and we do it all again except for the baths.

Through out the day, i am either doing laundry, cleaning up the living room, cleaning the kitchen, cause you never know who is going to stop by unannounced, my mom always said that, you never know and believe me i seen that happen. In which its fine, come on by, it don't matter to me.

However, with Chris working on the house and we can't seem to find a place for some things so are house just look a mess, but really it isn't. Don't get me wrong, I do get mommy time, when chris come home from work, he just lets me do whatever, internet, shower, cleaning or napping.

He also gets up at night and takes care one of the babies if i just say chris i just got to sleep can you please go and take care of Jessica again. However the way i look at mommy time, is when I am feeding them or after i burped them and they have fallen asleep on my shoulder and i can feel their breath on my neck, that moment for me is mommy time, i just soak it all up and smile. Just like chruch on sunday, chris and kept them with us instead taking them to the nursery.

We enjoyed everymoment, i at one point kissed RJ while holding him, keeping him calm and from fussing during service and worshiping all at the same time, i enjoyed it my fav moment was stopping and as i looked over at Chris hold our daughter, and worshiping him self, he had tears in his eys and just kissed her on her forhead that to me was the best Mommy Time, not getting on the internet or sleeping or doing house work, but those moments I just mention to me is mommy time.

Amazing Love

I never knew how much God loved me, until my children were born, although at times I am still afraid of how I am doing and if i am disappointing my babies as their mother and as a wife to Chris. I worrie about giving everybody attention and still give Chris the same attention as i do before the twins were born.


I can't help to think that I am failing as a mom already, am I being patient enough or do i need more patient. Sometimes, in the middle of the night, i said oh Lord please let me get some sleep i am so tired, is that being selfish???

Sometimes I don't think i am doing enough for my family and sometimes I feel that maybe i am just letting them down. However, the Love that God has for me, i can see through my babies and my husband cause believe me I don't feel i deserve what they give me.


The twins are now a month old, and I couldn't be anymore happier, they are so different RJ seems to be sleeping better at night and Jessica wants are full attention and wanting to be help more then RJ, and Jessica smiles alot more, we haven't yet seen RJ smile at us for the first time while he is awake but we know its coming.


Amazing Love is the title of this blog because I now truely undrestand how God loves us